10 4

Birthday

Fun Times

to all those that do, Thank you for supporting me

Love everyone of you! keep pushing farther and don't get caught by the traps of this world.

the missing ingredient is you even when people are against you.

I will be working through my birthday as is normal. got my driving permit just now.... never wanted to drive but life is forcing me. about time though .... I honestly haven't been surviving the best without driving so its a positive though it feels deadly. haven't driven on the roads yet .. just neighborhoods and and small streets. just wish me luck learning so late.

i feel like an NPC sometimes .. i just hope i have a story some day. so far I've been an island lost at sea.

I'm just hoping i can make rent but that's what i applied for as an artist

Hate The Game but Love The Players as its a cold world out here.

In spite of the storm inside we upwardly fall

the world is strange

I'm with family for my birthday

I will be better next year

i will treat myself better

we will be better

31

things are still rocky as im trying to find a new job

i just bounce around in the workforce as I'm a creative at heart and it isn't useful in the jobs offered to me. but i will find a way to make my music in the meantime

at a low point and i am in limbo with creating things ... i fear that i have been away to long from producing as its been 3 weeks since ive really been able to work on something ... im always thinking on it so maybe the time will help me focus on a project .. as an ADHD human our biggest problem is making plans then we never see through but i will never and have never stopped making music .. it is my peace in this crazy world

i have ideas for vocal work and am learning new ways to use the voice i was given in this life... ive been stuck on not changing it in performance as i wanted to stay true to my original voice. i wonder if i am inspiring anyone to be confidant in their voice by doing so as i intended. but i can play a part as voices are the same as acting in that one persons has a range of many voices.

i will be getting more experimental with my voice in the coming works as i have no regard for rule in that.

on another note i am concerned with the amount of porn coming again to this site as when i was a kid i was harmed by it as well as the people who group around it. there is a lot of youth here and the science and history doesn't lie about what that brings.

Kids roam this site so be safe. make and mark your pieces accordingly.. it is of most importance to keep the youth from these proven harmful things

please keep your eyes open in this field

Working on music as always

learning new ways to use my voice in the art form .. this currant thing I'm working on is sounding good but the writing of lyrics needs work. writing lyrics seem to be getting easier though it is still a chore for me to get to

------------(Stress warning)---------

Struggling at work.. its my 4th week there and the boss doesn't like that i smile a lot while i work

looking for other work around but finding a job that like me around is hard. management doesn't seem to like me.. i don't understand why. all i try to do is work and do the job and I'm nice to everyone. maybe I'm too quiet as i don't say much but when i talk i get in trouble with management. ... i need to find something as even this job doesn't cover my rent .. I'm in debt heavy and don't know when ill see something more then a negative number in my bank

Ive done mail-sorting, cooking and serving, medical manufacturing, loading planes, inventory management, stocking and warehousing .. I've even scored and cut glass to make glass windows and door for houses and skyscrapers.. i don't know where i would be good at this point but i need to make at least minimum wage here soon or this is going to get impossible to continue making things

my currant job pays 3 dollars under minimum wage.. i have no choice at the moment.

-------------------------------------------

working on ideas for the naming of the project

So far the name for the project is "The Swell"

I might change the name as things flush out

the direction may change and is constantly changing so a better name might be chosen

had a few ideas that i cant seem to get right for it but ill keep working until i have an art piece that matches the album

sadly no money to commission .. just gotta work with what i have as usual

i am not happy with these yet and will be working to get a better result

the top is my favorite but it doesn't quite fit the theme

...

sorry for the pause on music uploads its been rough lately

Thank you to everyone who enjoys my work

it brings me happiness

Without you things would feel a lot worse

truly a blessing

ill always be back in some way

Some of the best stuff is meant as a joke

Some works me and a friend made for the pure joy of the Goof

https://thespacelands.bandcamp.com

just have fun

enjoy yourselves every now and then and you might surprise yourselves

some of the best learning experience is done in the moments you lose focus

Keep creating

The Olympics is over for me .. just another thing i will not be participating in or supporting

The Corporations in control of the industries love poison i guess

eye rape of the whole world is a goal they seem to push and in a thing that has already been beaten to death as no new ground was pushed for art, just furthering depravity and irreverence as a focus.

I hate the bully spirit that is being cultivated

I am not angry.. I'm just sad

the road to hell is paved with good intentions

now the only goal seems to be causing outrage and mocking and in that to a people that is thought not to fight back

Punching down is the weakest energy form

this is getting to much and I've seen the direction they've been steering us, it shows up in even the art of artists i follow.. guess its been working as people seem to like playing this note over and over

This is not a winning view that i am speaking and don't expect it to change much. it will only get worse as the days continue .. it says this in the very religion i subscribe... people only seem to love seeing the flames rise higher

people need to figure out who they are.. same to me ... can i just be passive?

those who use the detriment of others for gain of power will not have my approval and never have

what do you believe.

there is a lot of misunderstanding and misleading

Jesus forgives and will not turn you away

we are all imperfect

hate and anger should be left in the dust

i do not hate .. i just will not participate in this goal

I don't expect anything for this other then rejection but i cant be silent with this

it is thought that the world will hate you for the belief in Jesus

things will get worse for me I know...

The world is in trouble and more of the same thing doesn't seem to be helping

I love the hearts of every person but the spirit burns and will swallow us without regard

please but careful in this time

Ill make something if i vibe with your request

Love you guys

<3

Okay Starting with health

Im sick ... last week I had started to get a cough.. now i can't breathe without the right side of my chest being in pain.. i think I've been coughing too hard. .. I think I'm okay... it seem there is always something ^^;

There is a chance I might be kicked out of my house do to financial circumstances. Things are rocky right now but i try to stay positive

working on concepts for a project that i will hopefully finish. My ambition get me to take on a lot and usually its out of my creative comfort zone. i don't want to be too transparent as to not reveal the messy project bones. "eh bones.. What am i a dog? Keep your bones"

in short it is going to cover my favorite topic to write on which is inner struggle and mortality

Hope to wow you when things are more certain.

Working on a cohesive collection of music .. an album if you will.. though is seems to be far off still

also ive been working on some music ideas with a friend and that seem like its happening too

Lots of things going on

ill try to keep updating

Much Love

JH

Hand is still messed up but at least now I know what it really is...

its permanent but minor.. it may be painful at times but people usually don't get it fixed...

I guess its almost cosmically funny that an artist would slip in soda and damage his art tool

Ligaments are gone 🫠

Much Love

JH

"Push through the pain"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JjXVS8gtcZY

The music is mine heavily influence by this wonderful mad genius

wild stuff from him and never boring

feel free to check him out

https://www.youtube.com/@whisperjack